Eat, pray, love

My ohh my, 12.15am 30th June 2013, I finally finished it. After starting reading it many months ago, I at last completed this unique non fiction. Downright honestly, I was so excited reading this book initially, the revealing narration of the narrator gives me reasons to find inner peace and freedom of the mind for me, but I stopped reading half way through for many reasons, the most effecting this is that I keep on imaging Liz in the image of Julia Roberts, whom I don't like. Can't understand why she gets to play Liz in the movie, the sarcastic look in her eyes, goody two shoes, best at playing the bad cheating soul in My best friend's wedding, that's her in true colors, but this is my personal thoughts on her. Anyways, I am so glad I managed to put her image out of my mind after months of skipping this book and reading maybe ten different books in between. One thing for sure, I am as fucked up as Liz in the early part of the book, too much negative vibes within me, too anxious over the most mundane matters, immature in thoughts, wanting so much to quit my job, blaming my boss and others for the shitty feeling I have to labour over too long a period. Truth is, I am still too weak emotionally, too relying on people to make my days, too unrealistic, super childish. Must start to be stronger inside, take the course of living my own life, be in control of my own destiny. When the heck am I going to actually start writing my first book, must try harder. The last time went ti Bali, had a grand time with hubby. Told him earlier today that I remember being so happy and in control then, about 10years ago that is. Must find that person again in me, revive her like Liz has revived her true beautiful prospect of a person. I probably won't be going to India living in an Asyram for months, have my babies to care for, but I must do all within my powers to regain my mental strength and live the remaining few years of my life with as much of great eating, praying and loving......